Instagram

 A new toy. Instagram can really really make you addict... :)

I am a student. Can you imagine? S-T-U-D-E-N-T!
Student of english language and economic sciences.

Can you imagine?

I am just happy :)

Everything is gonna be alright...

Holidays, holidays...

After holidays, I'm planning some changes.
Follow up in a few days... Stay tuned!

Somehow it is alraedy over a month, since I came back... And a only one week 'till the next trip...

I've never been at german north sea before. It was suprising, that there was no water - ebb and flow has really meaning there... 

Only few days more to go... Can't wait...

Techno Classica in Essen.

And this one should be for me... Phi!

But if, then I want this one! 

Or this one... For Holidays...

Cacao Republic in Poznan.
It's really amazing to discover the old places new with the loved ones.
I'm in love. Seriously...

German Train... It's a big part of my life now, when I have to commute between Essen and Düsseldorf. And after two months I am sure - it will never be love between us...

Mężczyzna (der Mann) beschwert sich, dass auf meinem Blog nichts auf Deutsch ist.
Im Grunde genommen ist hier gar nix mehr.
Auch wenn ich jetzt, dank meinem Baby, mobil bloggen kann - habe ich immer weniger Ideen was ich mit diesem Platz machen soll...
Vielleicht einfach noch mal versuchen?

Ich weiss nicht...

Ach! A juz myslalam ze nic z mobilnego blogowania nie bedzie... A jednak chyba sobie poradze :) Nie bez problemow ale jednak ;)

Home sweet home. My place. Just as I like it.
I'm happy. I'm waiting for the new year with hope and I'm sure that it will be only the start...

I still don't have a camera. I miss it, this feeling... to capture the moment. But this is the price for damage my marriage... New start. I have nothing but a few boxes and my laptop. I have to sell my car. But I still have hope, that it will be better... Someday.

Photo from my lunch with my ex-teacher. Two hours laugh and talk. And a new location, if I want to go somewhere... 

I want to be there... At home, where my thoughts are clear, my heart light and I... just happy...

Ups. It seems that I've forgotten that I still have a blog...

The photos below are from middle of March, when Sudda organized a blogger 'meet &greet' in Düsseldorf. 

On photos: Restaurant Les Halles. 

I've had so much fun, so I want to said THANK YOU again, Sudda! :)

I was there...

And now I'm back here, and this time with my thoughts, that I don't know where my home is... There? Here?

Maybe it's really so, that my home is where my hard disc is?

Mobile, as my notebook?

New couch table arrived. 

I'm happy.

New all-in-one printer is on it's way to me.
I'm happy.

If I can't just be, than i want to have... Just so.

chasing my dreams...

Nareszcie spadł deszcz...

Wiosna, cieplejszy wieje wiatr,
wiosna, znów mi przybyło lat...

[podśpiewuję sobie pod nosem, jak co roku w kwietniu...]

Czekając na lekarza w prosto i staroświecko urządzonym gabinecie, z sięgającym do sufitu fikusem, oknem wychodzącym na ogród i olbrzymim czekoladowym zającem, skoncentrowałam się na zieleni za oknem i niemyśleniu o niczym.
Kolejny tydzień choroby, nowy antybiotyk, bezsenne noce.
I cisza we mnie, która trwa od momentu gdy na pożegnanie przytulam mojego ojca, obiecując mu czekoladę i ciastka w piątek rano. Jeszcze tylko przypomnienie, że nie powinien ściągać rurek doprowadzających tlen i uciekam, uciekam z budynku i jak najdalej od siebie, by choć na moment zapomnieć o widoku jego coraz chudszego, zmęczonego ciała, o świadomości że umiera, dzięki bogom na razie bezboleśnie...

Na dziś, jutro, na nie wiem ile, uciekłam w głąb siebie i zatrzasnęłam drzwi. Z tym naprawdę nie umiem sobie poradzić.